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Characters: Kanda Yu [

promisedlotus], Allen Walker [

looseleafbook], Lenalee Lee [

fallforthesky]
When: May 12th
Where: Kanda's room, 406
Rating: PG
Summary: Kanda finally tells the others about Alma.

Kanda had taken Alma upstairs to Matt's room, telling him that he could spend the entire day with the clock worker and color what he wanted. That if he needed him, then just to use the golem. He wouldn't be far, he just needed to talk to the other Exorcists.

When he had gotten back to his room, he used the radio to call for Lavi and Lenalee and sent Allen a quick message through the network. He would be lying if he said that doing this didn't make him feel uneasy. The only person he had ever told about Alma was Allen, and that knowledge had been easily used against him by the Fourteenth. Lenalee and Lavi didn't have Noah inside of them, yet-

-he didn't like this. He would have been more than happy to keep it just between himself and Allen, but with the arrival of the other Alma, he didn't have much of a choice anymore.

Kanda waited patiently and silently for his comrades to arrive, simply leaning against his desk with arms folded over his chest.

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As soon as Kanda starts speaking, it becomes so very clear that there will be a problem. A problem for and with her. Lenalee can see Lavi retreating into the stoic sort of behaviour that he always fell back on during times of duress, and Allen's silence (his complete and utter lack of any surprise) says he's more privy to this situation than anyone else in the room apart from Kanda himself.

Which leaves her, without any sort of detachment mechanism to resort to or knowledge to boast, standing just inside the door and staring hard at Kanda as if a look alone will make what he's just said make any more sense to her.

The sad truth is, after her discussion with Rhode during Allen's absence, she'd started thinking about all those children who'd died in the Exorcist experiments. So she isn't that surprised (not fine with it, just unsurprised) to hear that Alma-- the child, she assumes he's talking about, not the frightening Akuma lookalike-- hadn't made it. So many hadn't. It's what Kanda says after that has her casting a shadowed look between him and Allen, who seems so aware of where this will go already.

But she doesn't say anything, either.

What else was he supposed to say now? Kanda avoided eye contact with the others. Allen could probably tell how comfortable he was, and hell, the others probably could too. He was hesitant to tell them anything. It really was a fluke that he had even told Allen anything. And because he did, and because the Fourteenth used it against him, Kanda was even more hesitant now.

"The older Alma that's here is... not an ordinary Akuma, I suppose you could say." Kanda folded his arms over his chest, gripping at his arms tightly as he spoke. He still hated the thought of being one of the main causes that turned Alma. "He has his Innocence still. I don't know what the Noah planned to do with me and him, but the Order used him after I failed to kill him."

'The Order is at fault for turning him,' is what he wants to say, but he keeps his mouth shut. It was bad enough both he and Alma were brought back to life and suffered. Leverrier just made it worse by continuing to experiment on Alma after he was "killed," in Kanda's eyes.

That's when Allen, who has spent the entire time flicking worried looks between all three of them, takes a step forward and interjects, quietly enough that he's not so much interrupting as supplementing, "The older Alma here isn't the one from home, though."

Doesn't mean he's not fundamentally still Alma, but even so, Allen knows some differences need to be pointed out if they're all going to be living together from here on out. It's dangerous to talk about both Almas as though they're the same version. Akuma Alma has made it very clear that he killed Kanda, which Allen knows isn't true for their world (not strictly, anyway). Things can get messy if they forget that ― not that this isn't enough of a mess already.

"Our best guess is he's from an alternate timeline."

He grit his teeth, angry at the Order for having done any of this, he had thought that they wanted to save human life. Not fuck it up again and again, mess with it until they had to put other humans down for their safety and for the safety of others. Lavi rubbed at his forehead, "What could have happened that made the other Alma like he is?"

Lavi glances at Allen, taking in his words, "From a time where things took a different path? A worse one, you think?"

While Lavi's questioning and Allen calmly expanding upon Kanda's words, this is Lenalee, slowly paling; feeling her stomach churn as something cold drops into it. It's amazing, really, how quickly a few brief sentences can knock a person down so many pegs, so hard, so fast. She takes back her desire to be quiet. Now there are things she has to ask.

"How..." Too quiet. Try again. "How do you mean, 'after you failed to kill him'? --And the Order? The Noah? You're saying that the Akuma out there can still wield Innocence-- what does... what does the Order even have to do with something like that? That's something that the Noah should be involved in-- and speaking of, why are you saying that they were planning to do something with you both? If you're both from a-- an a-alternate timeline, then it shouldn't apply to you! Kanda, this doesn't make any sense."

Long before she gets to the end, she finds her voice breaking.

It was taking everything for Kanda to even go through with this. His bravado couldn't help him just tough this out, since this was about him, and not Allen, not Lavi, not Lenalee. Him. He could tough it out if it were about anyone else, because that's just who he was.

"... After Alma gained his Innocence, and—" How could he do this without saying what they really were? That they had already died in an Akuma attack, and were only brought back to life out of sheer desperation on Leverrier's part to win the war? In the back of his mind, he could hear her voice, faintly. "—...something inside him snapped. He killed everyone in the lab, except two people.

He tried to take me with him, so we could be together, but it didn't happen. I thought I killed him with Mugen." A pause, and Kanda simply grips his elbows a little tighter, making it a point to not even look at Lenalee.

"He didn't really die, though. The Order kept him alive. Human experimentation stopped when Komui took over. I don't think he's aware of it, but- The Order were the ones that turned Alma into an Akuma." Kanda wasn't sure how, since there were so many holes that he couldn't fill in himself, but. It didn't take a genius to figure out that part of the Akuma plant must have somehow been delivered to Leverrier during the Noah Invasion back home.

"The other Alma said he had killed me, too." He didn't want to answer the question on the Noah's involvement. He was sure Allen didn't want him too, either, although he had already told Lavi his theory on that.