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Characters: Elizabeth Tudor, Open
When: [Forward Dated to:] 19th of May
Where: Her sewing chair, common room thing.
Rating: PG
Summary: Feels. Alcohol. How depressing it is to have all your stories end in "and then they were executed." Also: drinking from mid morning is perfectly acceptable for Tudor-times. Triggery? For executions and general horribleness?

Elizabeth prided herself on her mask. Chipped as it was in places, it did not take much for her to smile and cover almost every ill completely until something made her snap. To breeze by like she was unaffected when otherwise her heart was in her throat. So when it slipped, she was left at the strangest feeling of vulnerability. Today happened to be one of those days, where it felt like it was falling out of her hands again, when for sheer anniversaries sake, her mind strayed from her otherwise tight hold. She couldn’t find the energy to be her usual self, her hair was left free, her dress plain black and as she took up her usual seat for sewing, it felt a physical effort to summon a smile. She longed for company, but had long since lost the ability to ask for it.

Her design for sewing was simple, and selfishly only for her, though she’d promised to do things for others (they were at a bundle in a basket next to her chair). A swan with red edging. The mundane action let her mind drift, and the more it drifted, the more she drank, forgetting to even eat. A glass for her fierce mother, whose bold day it was. Another for her father, and Jane Seymour. Half a bottle for Katherine Howard, another half for her brother and sister. A bitter mouthful for Thomas Seymour and Katherine Parr. It became almost calculated. Dudley, Wolsingham, and the decision she had to make. Duty, her country and loneliness. The horror of being in this place, when speaking to Thor and Loki had made her miss her home so much.

By the time she reached half way through the third bottle some time had passed, she was feeling light headed and she sunk back into the chair. She longed for home, of her ladies to sit with, as they laughed over this Lord or that Lady. She fell into memories, and found solace like that. The sewing fell out of her hands, the red thread unravelling as it hit the ground, the swan missing all but it’s head, she drifted off into a unhappy doze, light as it was. The bottles and her half filled glass by her feet, rather telling proof of how much she had drunk. There was enough left, that someone else could have a glass too, should they want it.

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"Oh good, I don't think I am quite capable at the moment. Are they in Indian?" Not knowing much about the country itself. They hadn't acknowledged her after all. So they could keep their sultans as far as she was concerned, she'd only wanted the spices anyway.

"I see," Curious, to the different relations. "So the heart is of the emotions there too. I know it is in Greek and Roman traditions as well... it's fascinating. Please, continue." There really wasn't anything so enjoyable to her as learning. She'd always had a taste for it. Especially when it was something that interested her. Never really had a particular fault with the arcane or occult either, even her father had had astrologers.

It was clear again, that Elizabeth was from an older time; Raven deciding to not go into the tangents of there being no single 'Indian' language per se, or how the heart is the center of the emotions in many many cultures. One step at a time, and it was nice to find another who enjoyed learning, finding out new things.

"There's a lot we've learned since your era, that you'll find fascinating." She contented herself with mentioning, then moved on with the last 3 chakra. "The solar plexus chakra, located just below the heart, is associated with growth of personal power. Like how if you truly need to speak loudly, you don't want to shout from your lungs, but from your diaphragm which is in the solar plexus area."

"The next spot, located just below your belly, is called the Sacral chakra. Associated and representing enthusiasm, and the utilization of creative forces into all aspects of one's being. The last chakra, and usually one starts here and works their way up through the chakras--is the Root chakra. It's located in the groin, and grounds us, relates to basic human instinct and survival."

Raven paused, reaching up to tuck some hair behind her ear. Almost seeming nervous for a moment. "I...mentioned I'm from a far more futuristic time than you yes? I can show you how to meditate through the chakras, but my mode of dress will scandalize you." Her way of warning, as she still very much wanted to be around her majesty.

Those things at least of right this moment, would have gone straight over her head. Her knowledge was so very limited about India at least. Poor island nation not worth trading with indeed.

She took all of it in, it was all very interesting, different to anything she had ever heard, and she completely sure the bishops would burn the girl for saying most of it, but the bishops liked to burn anything that was smarter then them. Thank god they had never gotten around to chopping her head off at least. But she banished those thoughts almost immediately. "Honesty, your clothing is the least of the worries on my mind on this day of all days, but I promise I will be properly aghast like only a paragon daughter of Henry Tudor can be. It involves fainting and a great deal of shocked gasping."

Her ladies did it all the time when they wanted attention from one of the males in present company. She hated it really.

That actually prompted a very quiet laugh. Closest Raven actually came to giggling, really. "I'll take shocked gasping, but I think the fainting would be a bit much, Majesty."

Odd, how she still remained calm through it. "Mostly it's just in my world, and my time...where I'm from, I am part of a team that works as a sort of free-lance constabulary. It means, cloak aside, I need to be ready for action at almost any time, so my...outfit is designed for this.

Warning, even as Raven ignored that she was nervous. Still, things had gone well so far, and she was finding she wanted to be remain around Elizabeth. Now she stood, getting to her feet fluidly. "Mostly, it means that my legs are bare." Letting her cloak fall behind her, and revealing her 'uniform' as she viewed it. A black long sleeved and turtleneck leotard, the jeweled belt, the boots...and very bare, pale, legs.

"Oh good, because I'm a terrible actress without any lines to say. Not so good at fainting either." The few times she had, had been genuine.

Nodding, she took everything in, mentally preparing herself for the worst. What on earth did she wear under there? Did Elizabeth even care right now? It was as she had wanted, a distraction.

Though really, looking at her bare legs, she did look surprised, but that was either because she hadn't had enough to drink, or too much. It was practical, she titled her head one way, then the other. "... Don't you get cold? I'd be freezing here. My four layers of petticoats do serve a purpose, contrary to popular belief."

Oh, and for Raven's sake, trying to hold in her laughter, she pressed her fingers to her lips and mocked a gasp of surprise. "My lady, what ever would your mother say?! You'll be called a common strumpet."

Again that quiet giggle, Raven letting the cloak fall once more. "My mother is well aware, but I doubt cares very much. I'm also far more covered than many women, who go out to dance or behave in an unseemly manner, already." It was sarcastic, but gently so, as Raven was still amused.

"I do, which is why I usually stay covered up. I'm pondering scavenging up some different clothing, really. I'm also decent at ignoring things though." She had to be, really.

"In any case, the chakra tend to represent spiraling vortices of energy. And one would start meditating upon them by moving from the bottom at the root," Her hand gestured, moving up along the chakra as she did so. "up to the crown. I just...wanted to show you, but it wouldn't have made sense while covering up so much."

Elizabeth laughed at well, before settling back in her chair.

"I saw something like that when I was in the city across the river. It was very strange. Men here are very strange, I honestly swear they are both more and less like I remember them to be, it's a headache trying to deal with them sometimes." Boys, really, with bigger swords, and she groaned faintly at the thought of it. That was enough to give her the hung over headache already.

"Well if need any help modifying anything, or just warm clothing at all till you find something better... well, I suppose summer is coming, so it's not necessary yet. You have time to find warmer things." She shrugged. Raven would come to her if she truly needed it.

"The logic procession through the stages of being then?" Even drunk, she was quick to latch onto the concepts. They all represented something. Symbolism she understood. After that conversation with Wolsingham she she knew what had to do. That just sent her thoughts dark again, in such a irreversible way and she sighed.

"... Do you know what day it is?"

Raven would indeed, as she's good at scavenging, not so much at modifying. And she was very pleased to find Elizabeth latching on, nor was she unaware of the change of mood. Settling once more on the floor, still bundled in her cloak but less concerned now should Elizabeth see her 'attire', Raven nodded. "It is a logical progression through the stages of being. And sadly, I do not know what day it is. I neglected to look."

Pausing, then asking quietly and delicately. "I...I'm a good listener. What's wrong Elizabeth?" Prepared for the queen to not open up to her, but offering all the same.

Elizabeth settled into her chair, looking out of the window again, it was getting dark, and really she ought not be near anyone till her mind settled some. But she had to get some of it out of her mind.

"... It's the 19th of May. My mother was executed today. Beheaded by a sword and so died a bold death by everyone's accounts. The rest is just memories." She didn't look at Raven while she said any of this, just kept watching the dimming landscape. "Do you suppose it's wrong to find solace in memories? Even if they are not particularly good ones? Or clear any more? I loved my father, even if I perhaps ought not to. To be in his presence was like to be near the sun for awhile. So joyous, so full of life at times, it burnt you right through. I cannot explain what court is like, but it like a great nest, and all lived to see the King smile." Her mind was embellishing again, but it felt so much sweeter that way.

Raven listened, quiet and attentive, and making no judgement. Even without prying, the melancholy was clear to her Empathy, and rare for Elizabeth. "There's nothing wrong in finding solace in memories--they help us be who we are, whether we want to be that way or not." Quietly said, but with a gentleness to her tone. "It only becomes a hindrance when that's all we do... Right now you're having a moment of melancholy, and that's ok. So long as it is only a moment, then you will be fine."

"It's easy in England, after all, there are so many kinds of entertainment available. I think it's why I drank instead. I can hardly beck and call people here. That's arrogant, even for me."

That and her pride rejected every notion of asking for help for such things. She didn't know how or what she had done, but she seemed to falling into some kind of... older sister role. It seemed wrong to be weak so briefly to her own emotions. Even if privately she knew how much they ruled her.

"I do not think it will though, when everyone is so kind to me here." Well, almost everyone. She seemed to be making progress with Kanda though.

"I'm good at keeping secrets, so I won't tell others you needed these moments." Said with another shy smile, Raven still hoping she was bringing some comfort, even if it didn't feel like it to her.

"Of course you are. I often think that is a woman's job more then anything else. Not to bear children, or run a household, or any of those things. It is to keep secrets. But men seldom appreciate that."

She reached out again, and lightly brushed fingers across Raven's hair, being mindful to not go near her strange crystal again. Elizabeth liked her, very much, and she was mostly sure it wasn't just the alcohol talking.

Raven tensed again, still not used to being touched--but she was still, and so Elizabeth was allowed to run her fingers across the dark-purple strands cut short. "Not all women are, and some men are very good at secret-keeping too, but...much of my life is spent in the shadows."

"If you're feeling better, bed would likely be a good idea soon, Elizabeth." It was said mildly though, as Raven was trying to be solicitous. Sometimes people needed to talk things out though, to purge their inner worries, and if Elizabeth wasn't finished with that, then Raven would wait.

"Yes like Wolsingham. Man's got spies everywhere. I'm glad he's on my side. I'd hate to know what would have happened to me had he any less of a moral centre." In that he knew where his duty lay, and all manner of cruelty was excusable for it.

"I suppose you are right. I don't suppose you know any alchemy for me to not dream do you? I always have the same dream on such occasions, and I grow weary of watching my own execution." It's said with a tired smile, bundling up her sewing and putting it in her basket, nearly knocking her glass over. But just to make sure, she drank what was left in it, not need to waste anything.

"Not alchemy, but I can still assist." Raven got to her feet, moving to help carry stuff as well as to steady Elizabeth. For all she was petite, Raven was sturdier than she looked. "I can block your dreams while I meditate; it'll allow you to get some rest, if that would be acceptable."

As soon as she stood up, she remembered why standing was such a awful idea. The room span and the earth seemed to shift under her feet. Immediately she latched on to Raven, hand braced on her shoulder. Would feel a little bad for her being so little, and Elizabeth so tall. Actually, as she blinked down at her, Raven looked the height of a child. Little as those Uchiha boys were. She'd ask later how old Raven was... if she remembered.

"Oh dear, suddenly I remember why I fell asleep in the chair. Leave the sewing. No one is going to take it after all. Just... slow steps."

"A moment, Elizabeth, and I can help." Raven immediately shifted her stance slightly as she placed the sewing back down to better support the other. Taking a deep breath, and passively extending her Empathy in a wave of 'calm and ease'. Without the extra things to carry, she was able to support the taller woman more easily.

Definitely sturdier than she seemed, as she helped Elizabeth move slowly towards her room. "You'll be fine, with some rest."

It worked, there was an ease then, that the alcohol didn't provide for all it's ability to mute, but she just put it down to the prospect of bed, and getting out of her corset.

"Oh I doubt that very much. I know exactly what's waiting for me in a few hours, and it's as pleasant as a kick to the head." She laughed, though not much because she was concentrating on walking step by step out of the room, trying to think where her room was again...

"... Pox ridden, wine sodden, son of a whore, there's stairs to my room. Why stairs? I hate stairs. I am four hundred years into the future and people still have stairs." It's a muttered little outburst that gets louder in her frustration.

"Well, I will do what I can to ease it, you know that." With luck, while Raven was blocking Elizabeth's dreams, she might be able to do some healing to prevent the worst of her hangover. She did not react to the statement, even if she was amused at it.

"Stairs are still useful, as much as they cause you consternation." Raven murmured in response, before exercising a bit of will and creating a small disc of dark-energy. Solid enough, and she stepped on it, supporting Elizabeth and then stopping them both. "Lucky for you, I know how to help us avoid the stairs." Especially as she steadied the taller woman, when the disc moved.

"You're far too good. I'll give you a title when we get home. You can be the Duchess of Buckingham and you can come to court for Christmas and the new year." Pleased with this happy image in her mind, she didn't really notice what Raven was doing.

She didn't really... understand what was happening, thankfully. Else she'd have a great deal of questions. But for the moment, she just accepts it. "... well this is convenient."

"I have various skills." Raven just murmured quietly. She was glad for the lack of questions right now, and amused at the older woman's musings. Quietly letting Elizabeth lead the way, but ready to assist where she could as they entered the Queen's room, and Raven helped her to settle on the bed, waiting to see what else was required.

"I am sure you do. This has to be the most convenient of them, though I am sure I should be horrified right now, but forgive me if I cannot even find the will to care."

Once she got in her room, she went about getting her dresses of. Not even thinking on it as improper. She was used to there being nearly five women in the room while she was mostly naked, or completely. Still, off came the top dress, then she sighed and realised she was too tired to get the corset undone by herself.

"Do you mind unlacing it for me?" Which yes, she laced this thing by herself every morning. But then, she was adaptable.

Oh yeah--Elizabethan's still wore corsets, which meant Elizabeth herself did. Raven was inwardly very pleased for her modern clothing, as while the corset could be nice on occasion--not being able to move would drive her nuts. "I'm not sure I'll do so the right way, but you can likely sort it out for yourself later." Moving over, and doing her best to undo knots and pull gently at the laces, hoping she was doing alright as she politely continued to ignore the drunken state, or anything else untoward.

... and they would keep wearing corset for another two hundred years. You only just escaped Raven. At least her time wasn't at the rib breaking stage.

"Hardly. I've been wearing them since I was thirteen. If a drunk man can undo them while intemperate with lust, I've no doubt you can presently."

For her part though, it was nostalgic, and she just stood there placidly as it all came up undone, humming quietly. Meanwhile pulling her hair over her shoulder to plait it. That was an achievement in and of itself.