"It's easy in England, after all, there are so many kinds of entertainment available. I think it's why I drank instead. I can hardly beck and call people here. That's arrogant, even for me."

That and her pride rejected every notion of asking for help for such things. She didn't know how or what she had done, but she seemed to falling into some kind of... older sister role. It seemed wrong to be weak so briefly to her own emotions. Even if privately she knew how much they ruled her.

"I do not think it will though, when everyone is so kind to me here." Well, almost everyone. She seemed to be making progress with Kanda though.