He'll never let you be! You're his rabbit, deal with it. He's let you be selfish since people started leaving months ago, it's time to stop dammit. Sulking never brought anyone back. And he's Kanda, you know he doesn't care about others' pasts because it's in the past. Talking about it has never changed anything. So what else is there to talk about? Kanda's the type to offer silent company without question, Allen and Lenalee were the ones that offered to talk it out.
Maybe not supposed to, but over the last year and a half? Both of their hearts grew. Screw the Bookman rules for now, you'll be missed. If they ever made it home, Kanda would want those he's spent the past year plus with him. If that even counts for anything.
Kanda stops at that, turning to walk over to Lavi's window, crossing his arms over his chest. If Lavi looked, he'd notice that Kanda's wearing his emotionless mask, as if saying that hit some kind of nerve.
"Allen said something like that." Allen, not beansprout. Really, Kanda, you've got to stop this weird habit you've formed with Allen's first name. Not that he can be bothered to care, anyway. He's just left wondering... when he had slipped back into that pattern, of just surviving. Hadn't he promised himself, and Allen, that he would do better than that?
Ahh, and he hates people who break their promises... That thought brings a weak tug to his lips. Who knows what Allen would think if he saw him slip back. ...Who knew he even somewhat depended on the beansprout to keep himself straight.
Has he ever mentioned how fucked up this place is? Pretty sure that's the reason. Yeah, it's definitely Nesreca. Nothing to do with his mental state of mind. Nope. Totally not.
Kanda fell silent for a moment after that, just watching the unchanging, barren city. What else could they even do? As Exorcists, their purpose here was absolutely meaningless. There weren't any Akuma, and the Noah have just been...lazy, without the Earl to tell them what to do. At least, Tyki Mikk certainly has. Kanda can't remember ever seeing or hearing from Rhode since she got back.
"What else can we even do? We lack a purpose in even being here." God, it almost sounds... Kanda doesn't even want to think it, because he hasn't. "It's not easy even trying to find projects to occupy ourselves with. There's no war, there isn't even any Noah activity. This place is honestly nothing more than a hell-coated utopia for us." Which was...oddly true, in a sense. More time for people to live life who didn't have it, like Alma and possibly even Lavi. No worries about the Order or missions or Crow or hunting Innocence or Noah or Akuma or beansprouts.
This city just...lacked. And Kanda was at a loss as to what to do, now.
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Maybe not supposed to, but over the last year and a half? Both of their hearts grew. Screw the Bookman rules for now, you'll be missed. If they ever made it home, Kanda would want those he's spent the past year plus with him. If that even counts for anything.
Kanda stops at that, turning to walk over to Lavi's window, crossing his arms over his chest. If Lavi looked, he'd notice that Kanda's wearing his emotionless mask, as if saying that hit some kind of nerve.
"Allen said something like that." Allen, not beansprout. Really, Kanda, you've got to stop this weird habit you've formed with Allen's first name. Not that he can be bothered to care, anyway. He's just left wondering... when he had slipped back into that pattern, of just surviving. Hadn't he promised himself, and Allen, that he would do better than that?
Ahh, and he hates people who break their promises... That thought brings a weak tug to his lips. Who knows what Allen would think if he saw him slip back. ...Who knew he even somewhat depended on the beansprout to keep himself straight.
Has he ever mentioned how fucked up this place is? Pretty sure that's the reason. Yeah, it's definitely Nesreca. Nothing to do with his mental state of mind. Nope. Totally not.
Kanda fell silent for a moment after that, just watching the unchanging, barren city. What else could they even do? As Exorcists, their purpose here was absolutely meaningless. There weren't any Akuma, and the Noah have just been...lazy, without the Earl to tell them what to do. At least, Tyki Mikk certainly has. Kanda can't remember ever seeing or hearing from Rhode since she got back.
"What else can we even do? We lack a purpose in even being here." God, it almost sounds... Kanda doesn't even want to think it, because he hasn't. "It's not easy even trying to find projects to occupy ourselves with. There's no war, there isn't even any Noah activity. This place is honestly nothing more than a hell-coated utopia for us." Which was...oddly true, in a sense. More time for people to live life who didn't have it, like Alma and possibly even Lavi. No worries about the Order or missions or Crow or hunting Innocence or Noah or Akuma or beansprouts.
This city just...lacked. And Kanda was at a loss as to what to do, now.