"No, I don't suppose there is much sense in believing those things for you. But some days, like today... how would you deal with the knowledge your father murdered your mother? That your sister had hundreds of people killed, civilians slaughtered. I just had three of the most important peers of the realm murdered in their beds, how would you face it? You cannot imagine what this does to people, to their minds. It drives you paranoid with fear." And it may have been foolish, but she needed to hang onto her mind if she was going to survive.

His words were kinder then she deserved really. She lent up and kissed his cheek, smiling. "Oh Lavi, if the world were made by you, perhaps I would not hate myself so much." She laughed quietly, and it wasn't so false. She appreciated that, even if she knew that sometimes it felt the complete opposite.

"Yes, Raven, and that young maid... ah what was her name again? Lee? She fights too as well. And I would think my lady Klaud was, to have such a title as General." She certainly didn't fit with most of them, she knew that at least. But she was useful in her own way, so that made it bearable.